Hiding behind busy

I am currently sitting in my rocker, the sun shining in through the window. A cup of coffee is on the table next to me and the house is quiet. For all intense purposes, I “should” be loving this moment. But I’m not. 

I have a million things to do before leaving on a trip tomorrow morning for a week.

The dog needs walking.

I’d hoped to clean the house (or at least the dog hair!) for my daughter who’s staying in our absence.

There’s laundry to do. 

Ironing of clothes to pack.

Packing.

So. Many. Things.

And for the life of me I simply cannot figure out why the universe picked this space in time for my back to revolt. Which brings me to the current moment sitting in my rocker with a heatpack on my back praying against all odds it will relax so I can get another 30 minutes of “to-do’s” in. All while hoping that the chiropractor or masseuse will call me back saying they can squeeze me in. Something. Anything. Because otherwise I have no idea how I will face this week without slowing the entire group down. Or if I’ll just be in pain the whole time. 

I keep wondering - am I holding onto something that I need to let go? God … it’s yours! Please take it freely. Trust me when I say, I’m begging! 

Have you ever reached that point when your body puts the brakes on and says no more?! It’s irritating isn’t it? And the timing is seldom great. We believe we don’t have time, but the fact is - time is all we have. And it’s the biggest gift of each and every day especially considering we never know how much time we have. For me, it is 100% easier to hide behind the excuse of “busy” than it is to show up and be seen. Can you relate to this?!

Which makes me wonder, are you using the time you have for your greatest good? Am I?! Are you making the most of it or putting off that dream for a better day. One that isn’t filled with to-dos and obligations, meetings, or when you just feel rested or have MORE time? Maybe, just maybe, the universe - God - is asking me to sit down and use the time I have to do the thing already! There will always be more chores to do. I am grateful that everyday I am given the choice of how to use the day in front of me. 

I could choose to sit in this chair and stress over the things that will not get done before I leave. I could choose to moan about this little sitch I find myself in. I could worry about what this upcoming week will look like with me gimping along. OR I could sit back and enjoy the feel of the heat relaxing the muscles in my back. Truly take a moment to savor the coffee in my cup. Use this time to journal what is calling to my heart and what one small action might look like. (because all things start with one small action step!). Either way, the time of today will pass no matter how I choose to use it. Personally, I’d like to use it for the greatest good.

What dream is on your heart that you haven’t put voice to? Is there something you could do today to acknowledge it and take one step forward? Not sure what that might be? Here are a few ideas to get you started in 15 minutes or less:

→ What does the future version of you look like in 6 months? 12 months? 3 years? Journal it.

→ Share your idea or vision or dream with someone you trust today.

→ Reach out to someone who could use your services and ask if they’d like to meet you for coffee. 

→ Choose a spot in your house that causes tension in your body. Set a 15 min timer, grab a paper bag, and get rid of clutter. 

→ Reach out to someone who is doing the thing you dream of and start a conversation.

→ Grab your calendar and do a quick time audit - where are you putting energy unnecessarily?

→ What do you want to say “yes” to? Fun? Friends? Movement? Creating? Add it into your calendar.

→ What is one thing you’d like to release? Remove it from your calendar.

→ Create a cozy nook in your house where you can journal, breathe, dream, or create.

Consider this … taking one small step every day to becoming the future version of you puts you 360 steps closer to her in 1 year. It might not sound like much, but 360 pushups is a lot more than none! 

You got this mama!

With love,

Caryn

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